With no luck with the production companies or broadcasters, I wasn’t quite sure what to do next. Few weeks later, once I had time to digest everything, I reverted back to my original talk-show format as the new one just wasn’t what I wanted, and it didn’t feel right for me. After speaking with few friends of friends I was advised to get a representation, an agent. I’ve never had an agent before but it sounded so cool! So I approached few agents and was told that I need get into acting if I was to be represented.
I have some acting experience from my younger years but I needed to learn it again. So in January 2013 I decided to take some screen acting lessons. Not just because I wanted to learn about the industry but also to get to know more people, and to increase my confidence. I preferred the idea of acting in front of the camera rather than on stage. I think it’s the security thing; I know I can go wrong with the camera, however, if you’re on stage there’s nothing you can do if something does go wrong. At this stage, screen acting was the ideal thing for me. The course itself was probably the worst training I ever had, and definitely not worth a penny. But I did make great friends and it did open up the world to me through people I met there.
For a few months, I have kind of forgotten about the talk-show or rather did not pay it much attention as now acting was on my agenda; and I was having fun. The next step was to get some headshots & a showreel done if any agents were to take me seriously. By the end of May, I had it all sorted. I was still working full time but by now I knew I was ready to move on. I knew that I will be taking on a different challenge pretty soon. However, I didn’t want to rush into anything either. I found myself a commercial/stills agent rather quickly and had couple of castings coming in pretty much immediately. This was great news as the castings are really an opportunity to earn money. They’re really unpredictable as you never know what you will be asked to perform and they can be quite awkward. The decision whether you are right or not for the role is not being based on your skills but more often on whether the casting director or the client (person with the budget that you never meet) likes you or not. There’s always a 50/50 chance. However, with a full time job it meant that I wasn’t able to attend most of them.
Over the last few months I ensured I saved up enough money to see me through the first three months in case I wasn’t earning any money. My friends and family were somewhat surprised when I announced that I was going to resign. ‘You can’t just resign without having a job lined up! What are you going to live on?’ was the most popular question. My friends thought I was crazy to leave a good/stable position to pursue a career in acting or even thinking about a talk- show. Understandable, they weren’t sure how I was going to live, survive etc.; and I guess I couldn’t give them an answer as I wasn’t sure what I was going to do either. In fact, most people that I told what I was planning to do had the facial expression that clearly said ‘you are crazy; you’re never going to make it’. That didn’t put me off, I had already made up my mind. Plus I don’t really believe in failure, I think everything is an experience (good or bad) and it felt right. I was going to do what I wanted and felt right no matter what others thought. I had been with the company for over 3 years and gained a lot of experience. The thought of going from a good paid job & managerial position to earning no money or rather not knowing when I would be earning some money was very scary but quite exciting at the same time! I was also aware that if it doesn’t work out, with my experience I would be able to get another job elsewhere anyway. With that in mind, in July, I grew a pair and handed in my notice! It was time to follow my dreams…